1. |
customers
03:07
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every time that sliding door opens
a new one appears
looking just like that last
are you even a different person
or the same creature haunting me with uncanny masks
eight hours go by and ive had the same conversation
about a thousand times
i dont know which to say hello to
and who to tell goodbye
it forces me into the bathroom
the only place i can avoid that amalgamation of skin and bone
it claims to be people ive never seen before
but it taunts me every time it walks back through that god damn door
i cant take it anymore
was it around the whole time
only now im not naive enough and ive opened my eyes
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2. |
EEEEEEGAD!!!
04:45
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i dont wanna sleep
just wanna get better
its not unhealthy
im just a go getter
its a waste of time
ive gotta stay awake
for 21 hours every single day
hallucinate and laugh out loud
grades are dropping that i didnt care about
keep my eyes open when i get home
so i can avoid waking up tomorrow
now i look back at what i did
my life was a blur when i was a kid
i dont know why i thought that way
all my memories have drifted away
innocence faded, i feel so jaded
but life was a chore, and school i hated
time spent online was a good distraction
but losing things fueled bad reactions
i dont know why i thought
i could escape from
that nagging voice
inside my head
half asleep so i can
drown it out but i
lost myself
gotta keep working
better not blow it
all this wasted time
and nothing to show for it
look at your peers
so smart and successful
forget a house
you're gonna live in a cesspool
gotta make money
learn some skills
study for tests
pay for bills
no time for fun
no time for games
no time for sleep
you gotta earn your fame
you gotta earn your keep
the price is steep
your life will change dramatically
in less than a week
will you be ready
when that happens
or will you be relaxing,
chilling or napping
get kicked out of the house
fend for yourself
timmy cup in hand
on the side of the road
where do i go?
where the hell am i supposed i go??
i dont know why i thought
i could escape from
that nagging voice
inside my head
half asleep so i can
drown it out but i
lost myself
only so many roadbumps
i can take before
im not fit to operate
id take a break but
i dont want to be
a failure
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3. |
how long
03:10
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alone time should be good for me
i've spent enough worried about other people
i don't know how to know myself
time's the healer of all wounds
but too much time spent in a cacoon
maybe flying by myself just isn't for me
interests changing on a whim
so little time with so much to give
just want to be remembered when im gone
so many goals made for this life
i want two kids i want a wife
always told as kid it's only right to share
tell me how long i'm gonna feel this way
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4. |
dogma
04:35
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is it worth being haunted by eternal slumber
no pain but i find comfort in my consciousness
stuck in a time where faith is as concrete as science
if i tell myself its true could i get rewarded
even still is it worth living forever
constantly waving goodbye to the souls that made us happy
i dont know
i dont know
i dont know
i dont know
if theres a god why did he only give us answers 2000 years ago
im a god fearing man
the less questions i ask the better i stand
in his good books
unsure of what to believe
is it right to pick the safest option
to avoid eternal suffering
remove all mistakes
all that makes you human
get on your knees and pray
beg him for forgiveness to avoid
the firey gates
ask that one day you might
see your family again
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5. |
rabbit hole
04:25
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have you ever thought
of how to make your life meaningful
but does meaning even mean anything at all
at the end of the day
we find we wasted all our time
pondering stupid questions
lets say there's more
so what?
maybe there's a reason we don't know
hard wired to think
to ask, to understand
i can recall lying on the floor
my legs gave out and i was staring at the ceiling
hours before i went around my house
touching everything
keeping track of all the feelings
as i layed there its as if i heard a laughing
family members through photographs knew id never get an answer
the walls were moving i knew i had to be close
but the feelings of dread were overwhelming
and id lost all hope but
lets say there's more
so what?
maybe there's a reason we don't know
hard wired to think
to ask, to understand
maybe someday
maybe someday we'll understand
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6. |
skittish
04:40
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face your problems head on like a man
you know if they can do it you can
you can only sit around for so long
show everyone that you're strong
weak minded individual
mope around cuz your life is so dull
no risks they're too scary
make a choice you're almost 20
regret
regret not dealing with it earlier
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7. |
the maze
05:57
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broken pieces laying on the floor
why complain about another chore
that's what life's about
you can expect more
year felt like a hurricane
losing people, got myself to blame
my body just isnt for pattern recognition
but what's another hill to climb
maybe i can make it back to you on time
incorporeal barriers
form a labyrinth that you can't see
the only one it affects is me
but the longer i spend inside this invisible dungeon
the sooner you'll give up and leave
shortcuts, and climbing walls
ive got an escape plan
spent too long counting my days
i dont care whos watching me
you can judge me all you want
just means you took my place
i know you feel just as trapped as i was
when i see that dirty look on your face
feeling naked in your clothes
as the cold wind hits your neck
anything that you feel that seems uncomfortable
i gurantee that its in your head
isnt that what you told me
isnt that what you said?
these walls we made are in our heads
yeah isnt that what you told me
isnt that what you said?
these walls we made for ourselves are in our heads
its gotten awfully comfortable
its gotten awfully safe
finally found company down here
but ive poisoned you my dear
i don't know what i was thinking
shared the fountain ive been drinking from
i dragged you right down with me
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8. |
blockhead
05:14
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jonster the monster Ontario
Psychpop and chillwave musician from Ontario, Canada. I write ambient music and short film scores sometimes as
well.
Links: soundcloud.com/jonnycasamatta
twitter.com/CasamattaJonny
Other Acc: aweror.bandcamp.com/releases
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